23 July, 2008
My Darling 
Dear Miguel,You had been with mama for 1 year & 3 mths..
(counting from the day u exist - 9 mths in my womb & 6 mths old now)
When you juz arrive, all things seems so difficult. Bathing , breastfeeding ,
changing your diapers, looking after you day & nite & understanding your needs..
I tried so hard to be strong but I failed ..
Instead of enjoying your presence, I am always weaping with you bundle in my arms..
Its not you.. its me.
I always tot I will be able to go thru all these..
I m strong & optimistic.. I m always cheerful, but I was wrong.
I was exhausted and fatigue. I collapse.
I cant tell wats wrong with me when daddy question..
But things got better slowly.
You began to sleep a little longer.
You began to smile back to me.
You start to babble some funny noises which was hilarious.
You start to respond when I call you.
You began to learn holding ur own milk bottle.
You start to toss n turn on ur own.
You start learning to sit up.
You start taking food.
You learn to say gagaga, bababa, aaaaaaaaaaaaa...
You start playing your own little games -
booing with ur lips, covering urself with hanky / blanket which scare the hell out of me!
I miss you terribly when I am out of the hse to run an errand.
You always laugh heartily, jumping up and down in popo's arms
whenever you see me at the door.. It juz makes me melt~~
Will juz forget all the unhappiness and stress tat I face at work..
I am really grateful to God for giving me a strong & cheerful boy..
No sickness (thou insect always bite bite you tat makes my heart so pain)
Eat well, drink well, sleep well & poo well... Such a happy baby..
You are such a darling. Mummy loves you!!!
You are a precious gift from God.
