31 August, 2007
LOVE I been thru the terrible first trimester..
of cos terrible, cos it only consists of vomit, spotting, morning sickness,
no appetite AT ALL.. & I lost weight (first time not happy abt it)
Heading fifth month of prenancy now. In my 18th week.
many many many changes.. changes in my body..
I wanna enjoy every process but the itch is killing me..
Really hope God will protect my BB (still dono gal or boy) from ezyma.
I don wanna BB to suffer like me :(
Been praying quite alot since my pregnancy. The worries in me when I spot
in my 7th week & 16th week. Been on 2 weeks mc resting lots at home.
The fear of any thing tat will happen to BB is so strong. Now I understand
why pp say parents are so difficult to be. U start to worry from the beginning
and it will never end. Begin to learn to appreciate mum n dad even more.
Esp. mum, always look upon her like a wonderwoman who knows everything n anything..
thou she is a housewife. But she always amaze us with her intelligence. :)
Will need to trouble mum with BB in future. Hope God will bless them with good health &
happiness. The family really needs mum alot. Guess we rely on her very much.
There was once when she fell sick and was bedresting.
Our hse practically cant function well at all. Tsk Tsk.. See how impt she is.
During my resting at hm, mum been taking great care of me. Now still have to take care of
er jie (who juz got pregnant also) haha.. so happy for her.. but hope her morning sickness will go
away soon. :) no more grumpiness..
Something terrible happen two days ago btw us. Over money & trust.. It almost broke our
marriage. I felt terrible, been crying alot. At work, at sleep.. crying non-stop..
It must be God's will tat we were invited to last sunday service, it woke me up.
Else I really donno wat will happen to us. Cos anger had overwhelmed me.
The service was on the Chapter on Luke. The painting of the portugese son who was forgiven by
his father. Anger is such a scary thing. Tat leads to so many negative issues - disappointment,
argument, etc. God forgives us no matter wat we had done, I wanted to try to forgive him.
To walk our lifes as a couple together. I really hope he will not give empty promises
and to prove tat he mean wat he said. I hope this scar in our relationship will strengthen our
marriage and not be an obstacle to us for now and in future.
I laid everything in God's hand. Our finances, our marriage, our career, our little BB.. Amen.
